Alright so I'm writing my post a little later than usual because like I said before, I'm working off schedule. My week has bee turned upside down--literally. I'm working the opposite shift I normally like so I'm still trying to figure out the gym, work, food balance.
I need to vent a little today. (Seems like I've been doing that a lot).
I went to the gym this morning to a new class. I had ran on the elliptical for 40 minutes before hand so I was a little sweaty. I got into this class which was called Turbo Kick. The website says its a cardio class that focuses around boxing.
I get into the class and pick a spot and sit on the floor to stretch my legs out. Chick A walks in. Shes totally buff and looks likes hes been spending far too much money and time in a tanning bed. Her skin matches her hair. She comes up to me says, "Oh did you just join the gym?? Is this your first class??"
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I know I'm fat. I know I'm a bigger girl. But for some reason this REALLY PISSED me off. I politely explained the situation about working off shifts and how I regularly attend ALL the classes that are offered at night-- and how I've belonged to this gym for 10 years. 10 YEARS.
She just stared at me and said, "oh".
So in comes the instructor. Looks equally as fake as Chick A. Clearly too much time in a tanning bed (Now don't get me wrong-- I love me a tan but these chicks were comparable to the tanning mom) She introduces herself-- much more than I could say for anyone else. But then she starts telling me how she understands I might be out of shape and how modifications can be made to make even the lowest of gym go-ers successful in her class.
ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS?
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| This was me. |
I wanted to get up in her face and call her out. I wanted to say, "Uh thanks, I may be fat and I may not be in your "Ideal shape" with your leathery skin and fake boobs but I've lost close to 40 pounds from the work I'm putting in and I don't need your stupid modification. I WILL do all the moves and I WILL outlast you all."
but I didn't.. I just politely said, "oh okay perfect".
I think the final thing that REALLY pissed me off about this class was that I kept getting referred to the whole class as "The new girl". And not even in a cute funny way, more like, "Oh everyone pick up your heavy weights-- EXCEPT the new girl you'll do this without weights."
Excuse me?
Ugh this instructor got me all pissed off this morning.
Good news is, I showed up Chick A who quit halfway through because she was too tired.
I guess the moral of the story is 1. Don't piss me off and 2. Don't underestimate the power of yourself or someone else. While all these fake overly tanned, overly dyed chicks though I couldn't do the exact same workout as them turns out they were wrong and I kicked ass.
And I will continue to kick ass until I get where
I want to be. Not where someone else thinks is okay. But where I want my body to be-- How physically fit, thin, or whatever.